hello there darlings, well lets see...i didnt blog yesterday so let me give you a quicky. i basically slept the whole day until like 230 ish. woke up, took a shower, went to the shop to get money, and then met up with chris at sushi king for lunch/dinner. after that i went to my night class. then i went home for a bit then ran back and forth from walmart dropping off a prescription and then picking it up. then i picked up chris to go to kiara's to watch american idol and to have a jolly old time.
TODAY i had one of those moments that i will never forget. let's start from the beginning. i woke up around 830 took a shower and got ready and stuff. then met up with chris, elliot, kiara, alex, and jenny for breakfast. which i shouldnt have done cause i was having major mood swings. but i went anyways because i'm retarded. after breakfast i went to school. after class i went to go to my 2 labs that i needed to finish because they were due today. then i had some time to kill so i sat in my car and read some of my book. then chris called and i went to his house for a bit to hang out while he got ready for work. then left. i met up with brandon and we went to do something and while we were doing his errands. joey *brandon's friend* gets a phone call saying sammii tried killing himself. so we rushed to the house. i didnt go in the house. i felt out of place so i just stayed outside and kept to myself. i promised myself i wouldnt cry because it would be pointless. but eventually i gave in. it was just a very overwhelming night. he's so stupid, while the paramedics were asking him questions he was SMILING. and he said he did it because he likes attention. HOW STUPID CAN YOU BE? anyways, i dont think he had any idea i was there. i was kinda staying out of sight. i couldnt handle seeing him. and that's just pretty much my night and day. lets just say...so far 2010 is NOT my year. you know i was doing just fine hating him. that "out of sight, out of mind" thing really does work. but then tonight happened and screwed everything up. great isnt it? hahaa. hope all is going smoothly for you guys.
xoxo
You can close your eyes to the things you do not want to see, but you cannot close your heart to the things you do not want to feel.
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