hello darlings

i'm not doing too good of a job with this whole blog thing lol. but i try my best and that's what matters most. well this weekend was pretty rad. spent most of my time with logan and ashleigh of course hahaa. loveeee them to DEATH. life has kinda been hectic lately. but that's a good thing i guess. keeps my mind off of some things. i finally set up my fish tank today. but it's only temporary until i get a bigger tank because a 1 gallon tank is NOT gonna do it. i feel like there's so much to say. but nothing really important. just a bunch of venting and stuff but i'll spare you for now. but last weekend me and my mom went to kohl's and i bought this pretty big picture frame and it holds 12 photos so i neeeeed to take some pictures for that. i love it so much. i need more picture frames in here. other than that...there's nothing really going on in my life. so peace out.

xoxo

i remember every word you told me. i cant stop thinking about it.

spring break '10!!

alrighty well this spring break has been the most memorable one i've had so far. i spent friday -sunday *March 5th-7th* with logan, ashleigh, sheri, and matt. we stayed at logan's parents' time share it was really nice and awesomeee. friday when we got there we went to downtown disney i believe? and we had lunch at "house of blues" and our waitress was so awesome that we gave her a 50% tip!!! hahaa. then we went back to the condo and met up with sheri and matt for an hour or so and walked around the condo place and chilled at the johnny depp pool area. Saturday we hit up the parks. 3 to be exact. you can bet your ass we were tired. first park we went to was mgm then epcot then magic kingdom. where we ended our day at the parks with beautiful fireworks after that we went out to dinner at tgi fridays which was yummy of course and then we went home and crashed. and woke up early on sunday cause we had to check out and had plans to go have breakfast with logan's family. which was very yummy. but they were on camping grounds...to be honest...i dont think i'm the camping type girl hahaa.

but after that logan drove me to my cousins and i stayed with them till saturday night. during the week *monday-thursday* i either went to work with my cousin Christina or stayed home or they took the day off or came home early. thursday was so much fun though! christina, her boyfriend (james), james's sister (maria), and her boyfriend (josh) went out for karaoke and it was so much fun!! lol. and one of those days that i was at the mall Jade came by to see me! i havent seen her since last year for my birthday. =p and then on friday and saturday i spent with my cousin ricky. all in all i had a great spring break and would love to spend more weekends with ashleigh, logan, matt, and sheri. i dont remember the last time i had such a great and fantastic time at theme parks. of course when i came home sunday i already had plans with ashleigh and logan to go get sushi at nippon. btw, i'm blonde now hahaa. everyone was shocked when i came home because it was a surpriseeee.

then monday...i went to class and went and got sushi with ashleigh and logan again lol. then tuesday...i went to class, went to the shop, and then went home took a quick nap and took my car to get it's oil changed. after that i went to the mall with patricia. then TODAY chris and kiara came over for a bit before i had to go to class. after class i went and got sushi with lydia and patricia and after met up with ashleigh and brittany and later on logan at starbucks. so yeahh there's about the last two weeks of me life. sorry that i'm falling behind on this. not that you care or anything. ANYWAYS, peace until next time.

xoxo

Every once in a while people step up, they rise above themselves. Sometimes they surprise you, and sometimes they fall short. Life is funny sometimes, it can push pretty hard, but if you look close enough you find hope in the words of children, in the bars of a song, and in the eyes of someone you love. And if you're lucky, and if you're the luckiest person on this entire planet, the person you love decides to love you back.

Venting

so this week has kinda sucked. as you know i dont have my car so i've been driving my dad's mercedes. and to be honest...i absolutely HATE this car. lol. it's just not my type of car. but whatever. this post isnt exactly gonna be like the normal post. i'm venting today. so if you're not in for some negativity then just leave now.

alrighty...where to start...well to start off i've lost a few friends recently. why? i have no idea. i'm guessing either we've just become too busy or our schedules collide and we dont have time for each other. or we just grew apart. or i did something wrong and i didnt realize it? but whatever. if you dont tell me about it then it becomes your problem not mine. i could care less if you invite me to places or not but if you got a problem with me tell me. dont keep it to yourself because then i cant help you.

next...hmmm...i guess you could say i've been thinking about the past a lot lately. thinking about how i could have done things differently. stopping things before they were gonna happen. to be honest, i need to learn how to trust my gut instinct more. because 90% of the time it's right. like i could've prevented the whole cheating thing *i know i should be over it* but i keep on thinking to myself "you let this happen, if you had just listened to yourself this wouldnt be". but dont get me wrong, i'm completely over the flithy cheating bastard. i just wish i stopped it before it started. that's what is mostly on my mind these days.

school is a major stress issue for me. there's so much homework and crap to do i feel overwhelmed and shit. now that i think of it, i've never worked so hard or tried so hard. so i know for a fact that i've changed my attitude towards my studies. even though it stresses me out i dont hate it as much as i used to.

a thing i need to learn though is not to have my guard up all the time. i have so much kept inside of me and sometimes i barely think of myself and my feelings and then i just feel overwhelmed and it all comes at once and then i just lash out at my friends and family. and they dont deserve that. so sorry if i've been a bitch to you or whatever lately.

i guess that's all i can think of right now...there will probably be more of these down along the lines of my blogging but this is it for now.

on the bright side, spring break is reallll soon and i'm gonna have a blast. orlando bound baby.

Who you are is who you are. We're liars. We're thieves. We're addicts. We take our happiness for granted until we hurt ourselves or someone else. We hold grudges. And when faced with our mistakes, we reinvent the past. We reinvent ourselves. At least we try. We're prideful, and we're lustful, and we're incredibly flawed. And eventually, our flaws catch up to us.