I've Had Better Days

don't talk to me, don't look at me
no we can't be friends
this little game you've got has to end
you can't flirt with me like it's nothing
because you're breaking a heart
my entire world is falling apart
go your own way and i'll go mine
i'm gonna get over you, just give me a little time.

so today was a pretty lame day. i woke up and got ready. got a phone call from Chris saying he was going to the mall with Elliot and Kiara so of course i met up with them. we spent about 2 hours there and then i left because i had class at 5. i had to take a test and i finished early so i got to leave. then i had dinner plans with Patricia, Lydia, and Kisa. When they called my name to go in and eat i got a phone call from my sister saying that my mom was being taken into the hospital again for the same reason and i had to go to my sister's house to watch her daughter. so of course i left and didnt get a chance to eat. so that pretty much sums up my day.
xoxo


Dear Girl,
I think its time for you to just let go of him. He has hurt you and me too much. Just let the memories fade. It's time to leave him behind. I know it will be hard, but it's for the best, trust me. Just keep trying...
Love always,
Your Heart

Done With Him For Good

not much to write about today. went to school. hung out with brandon littlefield, went to sammii's for a bit. total waste of time by the way. i walked in the house and the bitch khanie was sitting on the couch. i didnt confront her or anything. no need to start up shit. and then i went back to brandon's for a bit and then i came home. i hung out with patricia and anthony tonight. so i had a pretty laid back day. realized a lot today and made a few final decisions. although they're not easy, they're necessary for my happiness. because i'm sick of feeling like this. hope you guys are doing well.
xoxo

quod me nutrit me destruit- that which nourishes me destroys me

4 days in 1 post

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sex on wheels hahaa

hello my darlings! sorry i havent been posting in the past few days. been kinda hectic lately. Friday especially. i had met up with a few friends at the mall to have dinner and then went to the beach to hang out with logan and brandon. a few minutes in a get a phone call telling me to go to the hospital and that my mom is on the way there. so then i got in my car and sped my way there. we were in the ER for about..4 or 5 hours until we were submitted to an over night room. where i stayed with my mom. she was admitted to the hospital because she was having a hard time breathing and felt like there was something stuck in her throat. as we were in the ER they did a series of test and couldnt seem to find anything wrong with her and it was just really odd. and then i spent most of my saturday there waiting for her doctor to come in and tell us some stuff and to do more test. then i went home took a nap cause i didnt sleep that night and then got ready to go to the fair. i rode with Chris and met up with friends. i had a pretty fun time but it was more fun when i went with my brother and stuff. but before me and chris went to the fair we stopped at a car dealership to look at the phantoms and bentleys omg they were amazing! anyways, i had told my dad i'd be home at 1 and that was already pushing it. and i walked in the door an hour and a half late, luckily he was sleeping. then sunday i spent with family. we had like this asian spiritual thing and that took up most of my day so i didnt really see my friends. and then TODAY i didnt wake up until like 230 because i was catching up on sleep that i had missed over the weekend. had some lunch and then got ready for my monday night class. after i went with logan real quick to see brandon and then me and logan went off to get some sushi because logan was starving. but i didnt get any. big surprise i know! and then i met up with anthony at the mall and we walked around for a bit and i ran into an old friend in hollister! it was good seeing him. uhmm and then after the mall me and anthony went to ashleigh's for a bit and hung out. then we went home. so that just pretty much sums up the past few days. hope you guys are all doing well.
xoxo


I'm so paranoid of getting hurt. I am always getting my heart broken over and over. My heart has so many scars and bruises all over it. I don't know how much just one heart can take really, and I don't really want to find out either.

ADRENALINEEEE!!!

what a day what a day! had breakfast with a couple of my closest friends. went to the shop, got money for gas, got gas, went home, took a nap, then went to class. lol. after class i went with a friend to do something that's required for that class. i spent about an hour on that and then left. went to the mall and then went to brandon's house to chill for a bit then went to gander mountain with him and logan to have dinner. then we went our separate ways for about ehh half an hour then met up at the beach and we hung out there and talked. THEN we decided to go to sammii's place *cheating bf* and he wasnt there lucky for him. but while i was there he came home with his girlfriend and left immediately when he saw my car. apparently he was "pissed". like i give a fuck. he can go burn in hell for all i care. he's got it comin though. no lie about that. i got people that will make his life a living hell. BUT i had a pretty awesome day filled with lady gaga because brandon loves lady gaga hahaa. he's so awesome and amazing and funny. i love him!! hahaa. well there's that hope you guys are doing well. have a kick ass weekend because i sure as hell know i will. or at least i hope. peace out homes <3


You always say you hate to see me hurt, and you hate to see me cry. So all those times that you hurt me, did you close your eyes?

Lost in Translation

Chris and Kiara lol

hello friends! lol. hope all you guys are doing well! hmm well to start off this blog...i'm sick =p so i skipped my class today. BUT then i woke up around noon, got ready, and went to go buy my book. thennn Kiara called me and told me to meet everyone at dunkin donuts so i did. then we went to a Mexican restaurant i believe to have lunch with a bunch of friends and somewhat celebrate a birthday. thennn i went with Chris to take Kiara home. then i came back went to the shop went home chill there for a bit and then left to go on a date lol. the date was alright. dont know if he's really my type yet. and omg i'm just really confused and lost right now with guys it's just UGH. annoying and frustrating and it makes me want to throw my phone at the wall. but anyways, after the date i drove to Chris's casa and we went to Kiara's casa and we hung out there and i had a major blast because i love them oh so much!! hahaa. that's pretty much my day.

xoxo

“Follow your heart, but be quiet for a while first. Ask questions, then feel the answer. Learn to trust your heart.”

Wonderful Monday!

what a wonderful way to make up for a suckyish weekend! hahaa. today was just...amazing. i spent the day with logan and ashleigh and erin. we watched fame at logan's house then went out for sushi. then we went to the starbucks in abacoa and met up with anthony and hung out there for a bit. then went our separate ways for a few hours and then met up again at night to go to the beach which was a blast! but more people came! it was me, logan, ashleigh, erin, britany, anthony, and my new friend brandon. we all had a blast. i wouldnt replace this day for any other day. in the pictures..i'm missing britany, anthony, and erin. hope your monday went well.

xoxo

it's not about what you say, it's about what you do. you dont like the person you've become? then do something about it. cause no one's gonna do it for you. <3

What a Weekend!

hey! sorry i havent been active in the past couple of days. i either forgot or was too lazy to do a post hahaa. my weekend was alright. friday night i pretty much stayed at home and watched a movie and had my bff Patricia sleep over.

then saturday i spent most of the day at the shop and then went to the fair that night! it was awesome and sucky at the same time because of this ONE person but whateverrr. i'm over it. there's a snap shot of the shop up there. and that snake is from the fair. it's fucking 300 pounds! that's HUGE. hahaa. and at the very bottom i will post a video of my sister in law's little sister riding the mechanical bull. very funny in my opinion.

and then today i spent most of my time at home just chillin and sulking hahaa. but then i went and met up with a few good friends at starbucks and then we decided to go to the beach to meet up with a friend. come to find out this friend knows Sammii (cheating bastard). so we talked about him for a bit and yeahh. then we walked to where we parked the cars and listened to music and talked and dance and laughed lol. all in all i had a pretty awesome weekend with a little but of shittyness mixed into it. hope you guys enjoyed your weekend =]

xoxo

i believe that everything happens for a reason. people change so that you can learn to let go, things go wrong so that you can appreciate them when they're right, you believe lies so you eventually learn to trust no one but yourself, and sometimes good things fall apart so better things can fall together.

People Always Leave

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losers <3

today was...a not so great day. havent really been feelin myself for the past couple of days. i've had a lot on my mind and thinking about a lot of things. and seeing old friends that you used to be real close to and now you act like strangers...that's happened to me a few times this week and it kinda hurts. and why do i give people the benefit of the doubt when they dont deserve it? or when i know i shouldnt? i've just made a few mistakes lately that i wont be able to brush off my shoulders for a while. i just feel like i wanna be alone...just me and my thoughts. BUT other then that i had a pretty...decent day. went to school in the afternoon then came home. Chris came over for a bit then left. then i went to my mom's shop and met up with Kiara. that was nice. i havent talked to her in a while and it was a relief to get some stuff off my chest. after that i hung out with anthony for a bit at his house then headed out to starbucks to meet up with logan and erin. that's it. hope all is going well for you all.

xoxo

when i tell you i love you i dont say it out of habit or to make conversation. i say it to remind you that you're the best thing that ever happened to me. =]

So Much On My Mind

ever had one of those days where you just had thought after thought about life? like if you're making the right choices? or if you should let people back in your life or if you need to kick some people out of it? or if what you're doing is just a waste of time? well that was me all day today. everything was such a blur today because i was so out of it. so deep in thought. probably the only highlight of my day was math class *i know! big shocker there* and hanging out with my good friend Mandie. =] havent hung out with her in forever and it was nice to catch up ^_^ but that basically sums up my day today. hope you guys are all doing better than i am.

xoxo

“When you hold resentment toward another, you are bound to that person or condition by an emotional link that is stronger than steel. Forgiveness is the only way to dissolve that link and get free.”

Longgg Day

hello everyone! this post is going to be short. i went to class this afternoon. killed me to stay awake. then after i went to my parents' shop for a bit then went home made rice and went to chris's house for an hour or so. left went home took a nap woke up and went to my sister's house for a few minutes then went to anthony's and he gave me a trim! hahaa. then i went out to dinner with Lolly. always nice catching up with her. and then met up with a friend and we talked. all in all...it was an alright day. hope all is going well for you guys!

xoxo

“I just broke up with someone and the last thing she said to me was 'You'll never find anyone like me again!' I'm thinking, 'I should hope not! If I don't want you, why would I want someone like you.'"

Mondays Arent So Horrible

today was an easy going day. had my math class today. we played thumb wars! hahaa. this class is basically amazing. after class i hung out at my sister's house and then went to anthony's to see him for a bit. then went to my brother's house to help my niece with her homework. that's pretty much my day...the cheating douche texted me again today...you can pretty much say he kinda ruined my day. i think he thinks we're friends again..he's wrong. usually i would but he has yet to prove to me that he deserves it or that he's sorry for what he did to me. so i dont think i should be his friend until he does those things. i dont think he realizes how badly he hurt me. i could go on forever about this but i wont.

xoxo

Somewhere there's someone who dreams of your smile, and finds in your presence that life is worthwhile. So, when you are lonely remember it's true: somebody, somewhere is thinking of you.

Interesting Morning

first things first...ask me anything http://www.formspring.me/CindyNguyen9

well hello!! how was your day today? mine started out pretty darn interesting. the cheating douchebag texted me. and he was talking to me as if nothing ever happened. and when i asked him about him cheating on me and played dumb and said that chick was his sister. WTF DO I LOOK STUPID?? jeeez. BUT it was all good because i went to chris's house after i went to dunkin donuts and continued to slumber which made my morning better. i dont know why but he always makes me feel better. THANKS DUDE FOR ALWAYS BEING THERE <3

anyways after that i went home and he went to work. i chilled at home for a bit then i left again to go to dunkin donuts again to meet up with my good friends logan and anthony. we talked for a bit then left because it was too cold. i then went to go pick up my nephew from my sister's house in the heights because his mom was coming to get him. i then went home and hung out with my family for a little and my sister asked me to take my nephew to walmart to buy a new toy so i did. then came home said my goodbyes to them and i was on my way again...back to wal mart to meet up with a couple and friends and had some dinner at duffys. after that i had plans to go to starbucks and had the time of my life there tonight. my friend logan downloaded the farting app and it just cracked everyone up hahaa. words cannot describe how much fun i had! for a while it took my mind off of the bad things that i'm going through. hope you guys are enjoying everyday as if it's a gift and your last. <3

Life is about trusting your feelings and taking chances, losing and finding happiness, appreciating the memories, learning from the past, and realizing people change.

I'll always be beside you until the very end, wiping all your tears away, being your best friend. I'll smile when you smile and feel all the pain you do, and if you cry a single tear, I promise I'll cry too.

So Cold!!

oh my goodness it was absolutely freezing balls today! i dont remember EVER being so flippin cold!! hahaa. well today went well. i spent the whole day with family. stuffing my face and having some laughs. but unfortunately i missed out on the bonfire with my friends. =[ that's basically my day today. hope you guys are all staying warm!!

xoxo

“Whenever you're in conflict with someone, there is one factor that can make the difference between damaging your relationship and deepening it. That factor is attitude.”

Happy Friday!

what a GREAT day. it was a pretty chill day for me. woke up and went to my mom's shop for a bit. after i washed my car with Chris. of course that was fun lol. a few hours later me and him went and got dinner. it was delicious. then we went our separate ways. he went to work and i went to starbucks to meet up with a couple of friends. had fun there of course. i'm always laughing when i'm with that group of people. didnt really stay out late though because i have my nephew this weekend. it's always a pleasure having him here. he's like my child hahaa. well have a great weekend you guys and be safe.

xoxo

Sometimes i wonder if anything's absolute anymore. Is there still right and wrong? Good and bad? Truth and lies? Or is everything negotiable, left to interpretation, grey. Sometimes we're forced to bend the truth, transform it, cause we're faced with things that are not of our own making. And sometimes things simply catch up to us.

My Tuesday/Thursday class is going to be the death of me

i had a pretty productive day today. got outta bed around 9 to go to ihop with some friends. had a blast hahaa. then had my first thursday class. i can already tell i'm gonna hate that class. the teacher is a major BITCH. i'm not even exaggerating. good thing it's only a hour and 15 minute class. otherwise, i'd go insane. after class i came home and took a nice long nap till around hmm..530 ish. got up, got dressed, and picked up my friend patricia and went to the mall. i went to go look for some boots and unfortunately i didnt see any that i liked. while i was there i bought some ice tea for my good friend Chris and brought it to his work area for him. it's always good seeing him. had dinner at the mall then took patricia home. from there i went to meet a few friends at starbucks. all in all i had a pretty good day besides the whole school thing lol. hope everything is going well for you guys

xoxo

There comes a time when every life goes off course. In this desperate moment you must choose your direction. Will you fight to stay on the path while others tell you who you are? Or will you label yourself? Will you be honored by your choice? Or will you embrace your new path? Each morning you choose to move forward or to simply give up.

Snow This Morning?

i have good news...i found the cord to my camera!! hahaa yayyyy!! hope everyone is staying warm in this weather. i heard there was snow this morning? or...ice ha. i didnt wake up in time to witness this. but i had a pretty good day. Chris came over after school and we took a nap before i had to get ready for my first day of my math class. Chris and i had a little scare today though. my dad came home while he was home! hahaa. you can bet your ass chris was scared as hell but it was alright. my dad didnt kill him hahaa. class today was extremely boring. just a bunch of review and syllabus reading. after though i hung out with my friend Patricia. i came over to her house finding out we were basically matching with our clothes hahaa. after i hung out with her i went to my brother's house for a DELICIOUS dinner. didnt get a picture of it though. sorry hahaa. that about wraps up my day. i hope all is going well for you guys and the new year is starting off well.

You ever look a picture of yourself, and see a stranger in the background? It makes you wonder how many strangers have pictures of you. How many moments of other peoples life have we been in. Were we a part of someone's life when their dream came true or were we there when their dream died. Did we keep trying to get in? As if we were somehow destined to be there or did the shot take us by surprise. Just think, you could be a big part of someone elses life, and not even know it.

good and bad day

today was an alright day. had some good and bad things. it's such a shame that the bad things over ride the good things. because they were some pretty awesome things. but other then that i had a pretty chill day. spent the afternoon with one of my close friends Kiara. drove back and forth from ross and tj maxx plaza to my mom's shop. she bought me a sandwich and we went shopping. didnt get a picture with her today either lol. sorry. had some sushi for dinner and sat around the bonfire with a few amazing people tonight. did i mention i didnt sleep a wink last night? yupp been awake since...2pm yesterday. it's amazing to me. i havent done this in so long. and i'm very surprised that i'm not tired right now. but i've learned that no sleep for me equals grumpy hahaa. i start one of my classes tomorrow. yayyy. hahaa. tonight's blog is not so great due to my lack of sleep and bad mood. sorry if i'm even more boring in this one guys. but i'll leave you now. have a goodnight<3

forgiveness is never easy. bitterness is easy. hatred is easy. but forgiveness, that’s a tough one. sometimes people say things they don’t mean or do things they can’t take back. sometimes we do things we can’t take back, so we feed ourselves to starve the pain. we’re all afraid of something. i was afraid. but in the face of great despair i had an epiphany. what i’ve done is who i am, but what i’ve done is not who i’ll be.

A Day Filled With Driving

my day today consisted of driving back and forth from wal mart to ed morse honda to my sister's house. i was helping my brother in law out with my sister's car. in return he filled up my gas tank and made me a wonderful dinner. i would post the pictures but i cant seem to find the cord to my camera. so this post will be picture less. before all that i got to spend about hahaa 5 minutes with my besterest guy friend in the world. unfortunately we didnt have time to snap a picture because we both had somewhere to be. you'll be hearing about him a lot as the time progresses. my night however was pretty awesome. i went to starbucks with a few friends. we talked and had a few laughs. they made my night. that's basically it for today. for those of you that have school tomorrow. good luck getting up hahaa.

if you do what you've always done, you'll always get what you've always gotten.

day 1 the beginning of a new year =]

as my new years resolution i said i was going to start either a blog or a picture journal. and since i never got around to buying a notebook i'm going to do a picture blog. what is this blog gonna be about? i'm not really sure. probably gonna write about my day with a picture or two a day of who or what it consisted of. so yeah, here is my first entry. today was a pretty chill day. it was cold so i hung out in my room under the covers until 4 ish. then i had to take me niece to walmart so i did. we walked around a bit and she got what she needed. then when i got home i had to take my mom to buy medicine for her nose and developed some pics. then i came home and hung out with the family for a little. after that i packed my bathing suit and a change of clothes to go to elena's house with friends for a movie and hot tub. it was lots of fun. we had perfect weather to hang out in the hot tub. that was pretty much my day. hopefully i'll be keeping up with this blog for many weeks to come.

until next time, live everyday the way you want to and not the way someone else wants you to =]